The Bantal Busuk

The Heat.

2009-02-18T20:05:00.004+08:00

Teddy Bear Picnic (Informal) Class Photo - N2 (pm)

Top Row: (from left) Lead Teacher Clyde, Dylan, Caitlin, Zhi Yu, Tiara, Julianne, Co-Teacher Nadia

Bottom Row: (from left) Jaclyn, Zara, Colin, Jin Ho, Jamie, Jay, Cynthia

(Absentees: Ilhan & Hannah)

The Heat

Yest was such a hot day!~

I saw the heat radiating on the bicycle track.

And i..........

was wearing black, top to bottom

How soothing can that be? =)

Luckily today's weather was slightly better.

School was fun today - as always.

Smooth operation, baby! LOL!

I feel lethargic right now. Sleepy eyes.... aching body.

hmmmmz.... But my mind's wandering about the kids.

I LOVE them alot!

I asked Jin Ho: my korean lil boy, would like to go home with me?

Jin Ho said: yes!

* i gasped.

He's way too adorable. Luckily, im being professional. If NOT, i would have hug him, kiss me, pinch him, cuddle him just like a baby!

*receiving sms from Clyde

Whoa........ he may not be in tmr!!!!!!!!! yippeeee!!! hahahahhaa

hmmmmz....

*grins widely

The class will be mine!! ALL MINE!!! muahahahah!!!

Anyway, my class will commence on 23 March 09. Oh well, i will be more busy now. Work + school....

Ayte, gtg.

Need to have my beauty rest!

hahahaha

Muax muax!

Monday Blues

2009-02-02T20:55:00.002+08:00

Monday Blues.
Today is my Monday blues and it goes the same to a few colleagues of mine. Gosh, i had a difficult time waking up this mornin - no specific reason, just Monday blues! hahaha.

Work was fine today, as always. Somehow............... there were a few things that toned my mood down. Those are -
1) How can i be more initiative? Am i being initiative enough or not?
2) What can i do to improve myself?
3) Am i handling the kids the right or wrong way?
4) How do i make these kids love coming to class everyday?

I was prompting Ilhan to continue with his letter activity during Language period.... Since Ilhan's mood wasnt too good today, he pretended that he doesnt know how to do it and delayed working on it. I tried my best to persuade him..... and then i said "something" to him. Upon hearing that, Clyde(Teacher - for my N2 class) immediately told me that i could try said that "something" in another way. I was kinda paisey when he gave me on that advise BUT im really glad that he pointed me out. Just that, when i thought to myself.... then i went "Why didnt i think of that?!"

Luckily my morning schedule was very relaxing. All i did was joking around with Charles while at cleaning up some admin boxes which Ashley asked our help for and putting in pocket files for a class's portfolios. And that was how my mornin till lunch went by. Cool uh? *winks

*wonder how my tomorrow will be....

Im cravin for a bagel right now. Toasted... eating it together with the yummy cream cheese. OooOo Lala!!!

D's sick today - down with flu and fever. He sounded rather bad on the phone this evening. I hope he's having a good sleep.

=)

Ayte, i gtg now.
Got to see to some stuffs.
Adios amigos cheerios!
Muax muax muax everybody!

A Sunday

2009-02-01T16:15:00.002+08:00

A Sunday.
The only day of the week that i could just bump and bump and bump. Like Sharul says, the only thing you can do during free time is to watch Hindi movies. hahahaha. Yess!! I did................ watch not a movie but a vcd of Hindi movie songs. And then... i got all emotional. LOL!

Well, i wasnt so emo laa to cry and stuffs.... what i did was, building castles in the air. Big happy castles in fact. =)

But all and all, i slapped back to reality. Too much dreaming is harmful to me laa dey. How i wished... life is as beautiful, romantic, humourous.... like the movies. Whereby there will be the theme song to express your emotions. =p

Actually i was thinking..... am i appreciating what i have? or am i wrong to ask for someone better? Is it a choice for me to choose between the 2 flaws or the 2 strengths as a companion? What if i thought that i was right but all along i was wrong? What if people assumed that im better with someone else? What IFs..............
The problem with me recently is that... i have all those questions at the back of my head, i cant seem to answer it myself. I'm sorry if im being wrong by questioning all that to whoever maybe hurt by it. But the thing is, Should i even apologise when in fact, im only tryin to find out more bout who or what i want or need in life? True enough that we make plans but the decision is still in HIS hands. Neither am i questioning HIS work nor i dont trust HIM. I just cant stop thinking all bout this cause it all comes down to 1 thing. That 1 thing that.. Im cool and fine bout it yet it kinda scares me alot too at the same time, and that is - MARRIAGE.

Plans have been made. Yet, im still unsure. Unsure if that was the best or the right decision I've made so far. I dont know. haiz.

The feelings just fade away. Sometimes the warmth is felt so deep inside my heart... and sometimes.... its just not there; fadin away slowly.. Why do i feel such way? Most of the times, i just feel - ouh, okay. So?
What i used to feel last time.... isnt here with me anymore. Those mushy2 cuddly2 pampering and all...... are gone.

Dilemma.

Im serious with whatever i do or plan. But................................... haiz.

"Sometimes, its better left unspoken.." -anonymous mentor

*wonders..

My words are getting as sharp as a sword. Piercing through you like no one's business. Gosh, am i getting heartless? sheesh.

Back to my story -
What if............ that somebody out there, who doesnt tell or share, but just exist... is the one. Who doesnt dare to say much... but just being there. Who understands and supports since the day i needed it... but expressing it all through the eyes & warmth. What if............................??

Do YOU exist? Do YOU?? hmmmmmmz..........

Well, its all just dreams. Dreams that cant be grasped. Dreams that are can never be reality. Dreams that just soothes the heart. Dreams that play with your mind. Dreams....... they are just dreams. For whats real, is in front of you. Right?

I still have to learn how to appreciate the one thats within my reach, thats willing to die for me, thats always been my shadow my rain my sunshine, thats been my arguements and laughters... to YOU, Thank YOU.... thank you for all that you've done for me. Im sorry if i wasnt being good enough all this while, for im still searchin myself. Lotsa love from me, Naya.

Whokie peeps, sorry if this blog is very emotional today.
haha.
Takin care always!
Muax muax muax

p.s: Spread love not revenge and hatred. you rock!!

WOW.

2009-01-22T21:02:00.003+08:00

WOW! Time does pass really fast uh. It has been a mth since i last blog my diary. Life's been great for me! Just to sum things up, work is the best thing that has ever happened in my life right now. Im just lovin every single bit of it, everyday different stories unfold... Gosh, can u believe it??? Im gonna say - I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO GO WORK EVERYDAY! 1 big achievement i've made so far.

And, i can strike out 1 of my wishlist - the purple elephant. Well, i didnt exactly get what i wanted. BUT, i got a cute cuddly Eyeore. heeeeeeee!

I've been wantin to upload pics into my blog. The prob is.... all my pics are in my lappy (which isnt with me now) and im too lazy to upload into bro's lappy u see. hmmmz... *winks*

I'll try my best to update the blog every now and then. Cause, the job's really exhaustin me out every single day. To the extent, i dont have time for internet. Sucks uh.

Btw ppl, check this video out - The Arrival at youtube.com
Its good. Seriously. *big smile*

Ayte, catch up with ya soon.
Gtg darls.
muax muax.

Emo.

2008-12-20T13:47:00.002+08:00

I just realised something.
I am really an EMOTIONAL person. hahahahahahaha!
The thing is... i was readin the tagboard... and suddenly i went "awwwww...."
Before that, i was checkin my frensta acc and i changed my profile song to a jazz song - Home by Michael Buble.
And suddenly..i thought to myself, how wonderful life is.

Arent all those strong enough to prove that i am EMO.
kental laaaaaa sey! LOL!

Drop that subject.

Move on.

I miss my class!!!!!!!! Im soo attached to the kids there.
Last night, i felt like callin out their names to ask for a hug. Crazy uh.
Bluergh.
Each time i think of those kids there..... i feel as if, i have this certain energy rushin in me.. wanting to go all out and do anythin & everythin with the kids. Its like, im willing to learn and go far from here. Im on the amber light right now. Once its green, i'll speed i guess. hahaha.

i miss secondary school.
i miss my friends from there.
i miss the whole life about.. just gettin to fall in love, failing subjects, canteen, school bell.....

but im soo glad that i was happy back then.
Happy-Go-Lucky me.
=)

Some things... are meant to stay as memories.
Some things... are left unspoken.
And some things... are just forgotten along the way.

Bluergh!

Have a gd day.
Muax muax.

a new start

2008-12-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

It's a NEW START!!!!
Today was my 2nd day at work. Im so grateful that i got the opportunity to get this current job as an Assistant Teacher. =)
Alhamdulillah......

Kids. They are truly colourful. They have such a strong imaginative mind. I remembered during the interview my centre manager asked... What are you looking forward in this job if you're given the opportunity to work here?.. .. . .. My reply was: One thing that i believe that is important in life is to have a career. Having a stable career doesnt mean good income, buyin expensive clothes or eating at high end restaurants and all. In fact, it is more important to know that whether im havin a stable career or not is realising.... do i look forward to go to work everyday? do i feel happy at work? am i happy or satisfied with the work im doing or did? Since i love kids.... i thought... why not.. i combine those 2 factors together as one... Kids + Satisfaction = Happy Working. I want to bring smiles and joys to lives.. yet with a satisfactory feeling. Then my dad persuaded me non-stop to be Teacher. So i thought to myself, no harm trying. But i believe that i can do it. Cause i know i can. =)

Maybe its still too early for me to say...... but i hope i'll go far from here. Seriouosly, the kids make me wanna stay there. Intelligent angels, i would say. hahaha! Im gonna have a long weekend next week. I get half day on xmas eve, xmas, sat and sun. Then the following week, half day for new year's eve.

Ouh btw...... what's on YOUR new year's resolution wish list?? hahahahaha. Im so glad that im ending this year with a great sense of satisfaction. My 2008 resolution was to get a job that makes me feel happy, stress-free & alive. hahaha *winks

Okie, here goes my wishlist for 2009 resolution:
1) a class 2b license & get myself a nice bikey OR get my own car
2) a new hp (maybe a flip phone)
3) a DPT or DPL cert *smiles widely (depends on how i progress at work)
4) at least a few thousand bucks in my savings! heeeeee............................................................

ayte2.. its getting late. im goin slp now!!
have a nice dae peeps!
muax muax muax

hey baby!

2008-12-11T13:56:00.002+08:00

"Life isnt about choosing between the evil and the good. If that's the case, life would have been much more easier. The reality is...... to choose between the lesser of two evils or the greater of two goods."

Hiiiieeeee people!!!!!!! *waves frantically
miss me??? GOOOOD NEWS!!! GOOOOOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!

I GOT THE PRESCH JOB AS AN ASST TEACHER!!!!!! yessss ah!! Lotsa thanks to Allah and my peeps who gave me your well wishes!! So for now, im just waiting for the HR to call me up to sign the contract and all. WOW! Imagine me....a teacher?? Seriously, the kids there are soo adorable. I think i can learn English from them. hahahaha!

And.... i got for mama the baju as a bdae gift! she LOVES it!

And... And.... the panc outing was not at pengerang. Went to a kelong somewhere opposite pasir ris. Well, my rod caught a baby pari. hehehhehehe. kinda thrilled went i saw it clingin onto my rod laaa sey. hmmmmm.........i wanna go panc at THE POND one fine day. =)

Im happy that i've been smiling alot these days. Reason? ermz................im not sure actually. heee! Im so excited laaa.... D's bdae comin up and i've been brainstormin alot, hell alot. hope it will all work out smoothly. heeeeeeeeeeee. *blushing

Whokie, wont keep this post long.
Keep in touch people, May my force be with you!

Peace out.
Muuuuuuaaaaaaaxxxxx!

p.s: to fir, i'll try to be online when im free so u can help me with the cbox thingy yaa. to my peeps that have been readin my diaree, sorry if i havent got the chance to read yours cause my cbox creatin prob and i cant link to yours!

jobby jobb

2008-12-02T11:30:00.003+08:00

hellluuuuu bloggie & bloggers!
=)

Sun's shinin today! Hope the day will be alright for all. Good news to share!!!!!! Remember in my last post i mentioned bout applying a job as a Preschool Teacher... well, im given the opportunity to come down for an interview! haha. And the interview will be at 1330hours @ east coast big splash. Place's cool laa sey. But kinda worried for 1 thing.....if i really get to work there, how do i go there? I dont have personal transport sey. hmmmmmz................. *brainstorming

Should i go pancing at pengerang or not??? Should i or should i not??? Im kinda half-hearted you see..
1) i have the spools, rod.... all thanks to my dear atuk!
* he gave me 3 spools, 1 shimano spool and 3 rods.. and etc.
2) i havent learn much bout panc e.g. how to ikat the tali, how to this, how to that.
3) papa lak tk kasi takut2 aku nie jadi gelap. hehehehe.
4) heard that food's darn nice at the kelong
5) belum pun pandai campak, ape lagi if nak panc kat atas boat kan??
6) a new experience
7) i will miss all my fave drama series!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(
It will be tmr morning till.... thurs night or fri morning. IF im not wrong laa kan.

Another thing, what should i give mama for a bdae gift eh?? The thing is, i saw a purple watch at ALDO accessories... soo nice... but i dont have enough cash sey. Mama loves purple alot alot alooooooot... and that purple watch soo nice. HOWEVER..... there's this baju at eastpoint cost almost equal to the watch, and is very nice too. Which should i get?? the baju or watch for her??? And, i also have to get for ibu something. Cause i didnt get anything for her bdae, can buy and give serentak. *giggles

Shit. My stomach's achin. Tadi da berak, now gg berak again!!! hahahahahhahahhah!!!!! *bluek
Ayte, gtg!!
Wish me luck on my interview peeps!

Have a shinin day today!!
Muax Muax

the young & the old

2008-11-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

The Young & The Old.
=)

My topic for today. hehe. Had dinner at Changi with D, adek, aji fauzi, adek friend - Azhar + gf. It was my 2nd time to meet Azhar + gf and im kinda shocked. hahahahahahaha. The gf's 19 years old. Im 22 years old. Hell, I and her looked totally far apart.

Well, she's 19 but acts 22. While the 22 year old here acts 19. Did the world go topsy-turvy or what?? Something struck me just now. I noticed that girls that have boyfriends that are older than them by few years or just older than them kan... will tend to act more mature and demure "in a way". LOL! reallly........................................... Whereas for those girls that boyfriends of the same age... or younger than them... they tend to either look younger or slightly immature i can say. Ehem!! Ehem!! *darn wide smile

IF you dont believe, look around you. Somehow or rather, you'll bound to meet the 2 different category of girls. hahahaha. Anyway, im not kutuk-ing or sulkin bout it... its just a random ponder on such issues, you know. hee.

My personal opinion..? hmmmz..... Well, i can say that... i fall under the 2nd category for now. Plus, i dont really wish to be in the 1st category. Sekarang aku nie yg 22 years old orang ingatkan 17 years or 18 years old.................. if i were to fall in the 1st category, ade je people would look and think of me this way - budak lagi, tu pun nk step mane nye kakak2 matured je. WAH LIAO! cannot laa sey. No No No.

Another thing is, i dont care much actually which category a girl falls in. The important thing i've grasped and learned from Kak Linda (my 2nd cuzzie) is that.. as a girl, you really have to know your limits. People are watchin you frm every aspect and every angle. So, whether you're the spoiled biatch or the girl next door, akhlak tu penting. You can be friendly but not over cause people would say, you're flirty. You can be reserved but people would say you're arrogant. You may have an older boyfriend, but that doesnt mean you hafta act older too or think you're "somebody". You can have a younger boyfriend or of the same age, but that doesnt mean you can be harsh.

What i saw tonight..... made me tells that, seriously, as a girl you really hafta watch your every move and every word. It can be all right and all too wrong!!!! =)

Have i said enough?

Ouhz btw, after soo many years, i took neoprint today. But the card version. hehehe. Old school kan kan kan kan kan kan. And, my contact lenses koyak - thanx to lovely bro. I need to get new ones thats with astigmatism.

And......................im applying a few jobs right now. Sending in my resume.... 1 of the jobs is a pre-school teacher!!!! hehehe. kinda excited. Hope i'll get it. =) then papa's dreams may come true after all!

Conclusion, today's great but tiring. Great that i spent a whole day with him + i bought my fave choc eclairs + ate fave mee soto at Changi. Tiring cause i was either walkin alot or drivin around alot. heeeee! Plus, GIRLS, reflection time!!

Ouhkie, gtg.
Muax muax!

bluergh!

2008-11-22T14:12:00.002+08:00

I went for an interview last Thursday (if im not wrong) as a receptionist cum admin asst for an interior design company at Kembangan Plaza. Well, i think i didnt get it. Hee! The atmosphere and gut feelins tell me that this interview wont really work out well as soon as i stepped into the office.

Ouh yeah! And i guess...my dad's dreams may come true 1 day. Every now and then, he would always ask me to be a teacher. Peepz, imagine ME being a TEACHER?! hahahaha. cute kan cute kan. GOOD MORNING MISS NAYA!!! alalaalalal cute nye budak2 tu. *clouds in the air
Im gonna apply at Pre-schools.. those that can sponsor my diploma..... and at the same time work there as well. I found a few...gonna apply and look arnd.

Another thing, im sooooooooooooooooooooooo happy and proud that Sharul uploaded my pic!!! yeay!!! hahahahaha. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Wait, whole world will recognise me then???!! haiyo. *slaps forehead
Erm......hmmmm....... nevermind. The picture so nice laa kan. hee.

Recently...i've been encountering with dramas or movies or any cerita2 kat tv tu laa kan.... that have something to do with BEST FRIEND. =(
I felt as if i've really lost one sey.
The old tales always have the saying that a girl and a guy cant be best friends forever cause either 1 will tend to fall in love with the other. I dont know if it happened to most people out there or its just coincidences or wad laa kan. But it happened to me. BUT! things worked better for us as best friends, we're totally cool with it. Yet.... things had to happened which im still sad over it. haiz. I just hate the feelin of losing a friend. I just hate the feelin of losing a best friend. I just hate the feelin of losing friends at the time you wasnt even prepared to lose em yet.

Sorry D. You cast your friends away because of me at the time you needed friends. I was bad. But, i never asked you too. haiz. Its so complicatin. Now im the one who's avoiding my clan (sec schmates). I dont know why. *sobs

Okie, over with sad stories. Can i list down my wishlist?? hahaha. Dear wishlist angels, help me get em can? *chuckles

1) a 2B licence
2) a car of my own
3) a bike after getting my licence
4) a whole set of new wardrobe (i wanna change my whole look)
5) lotsa $$$$$ just to shop for clothes, handbags & FOOOOOOOD!!!
6) a new camera
7) a rewarding, happy & cool career =)

hehehehehehe.

I WANT A XR2 FOR A 2B!!!
okie, thank you. *indian slang

*not a racial discrimation.

hope kakak (saiedah)wants to go Mustafa tonight. I feel like going there again tonight!
=)

Have a nice weekend!
Muax Muax!

what a year.

2008-11-17T12:52:00.004+08:00

What a year!!
Life is really full of the unexpecteds.
New life is born, the old gives way.

Hey, gd afternoon bloggiez..
Welcome to the year of 2008. hehz.
In weeks to come, 2008 will come to an end.
fast aint it?

Saturday: my grandma (mum's aunt) passed away. Her going was really a shockin one for me. I always tell myself that when im old.. i wanna be like her. Top to bottom, fit and healthy. Happy-go-lucky old ladee. Seriuzly, i never expected her to go this soon. Another death of someone whom i find it hard to believe. The thing is...i dont understand why there are still such people in this world. People who envy others that live happily. People who envy others that have strong and good family bonding. People who envy those that always smile and look pretty. WHY? WHY are there still such evil people living in this world. If you really envy those that lives happily and are well-off, it should be a positive challenge for yourself. Take all that as living examples, a drive, a motivation to tell yourself to work harder in life. Having positive thinking, creates a healthy body, relationships and mind. So why envy and hurt people? It doesnt make you happier or wealthier. Stupid people.

=( But all and all, maybe it was really time for her to go. Maybe she was invited already. God loves her more....

The other death i mentioned earlier was.... HE'S cousin whom i considered a friend, a good friend of mine. And that, he passed away due to an accident. His first and last accident. Haiz..... His picture is in my frensta if you wanna see the face.

His going away was also an unexpected one from me. Gosh, i could still remember how i reacted at work upon hearing the news. =( God loves him more than us!

Dear Allah, ampunkanlah dosa2 aku - mana yang aku ketahui dan mana yang tidak aku ketahui. Ampunkahlah dosa2 aku jika aku telah menyakiti sesiapa dengan sengaja atau tidak. Dan ampunkanlah mereka2 yang telah berbuat dosa - yang mana diketahui ataupun tidak. Ampunkanlah dosa2 mereka jika mereka pernah melukai aku dengan sengaja atau tidak. Amin.....

Hey, i wasnt tryin to be innocent here or smtin. The reason i wrote that prayer above is because i wanna share with all of you thats readin me. I went to a syarahan some time ago.. and the ustadz said something which really knocked the brains outta me. haha. He said, "Ada tak diantara kamu yang tidak lepas derdoa kpd Allah s.w.t tiap2 malam sebelum tidur... supaya mengampunkn dosa2 kamu dan paling penting sekali... ampunkan dosa2 mereka yang melukai kamu dgn sengaja atau tidak?" Well, my words werent exact... but that was how he said it. He then explained that.... its some sort like a psychology workout. If you were to think bout it carefully, it works. We humans would want to wake up next morning feelin happy and unburdened right? By saying that prayer every night before sleep, it helps to release all the negativities in our mind.... and at the same time.. kurangkan dosa2 kite. I experimented that, and i realised that... it made me a more soft-spoken person, more sensitive to people's feelings and more forgiving. Gosh, and i totally like that. Please, it doesnt make you feel weak or inferior to people okay? You are more mellowed in fact.

So.. try that out, okay? No harm done. *winks

Ouh my.... im eating the Nougat from australia. Mum's friend gave her a packet of Nougat. My all time favourite!!!! Im soooo enjoying it. In singapore, a small pack costs $10 okay. darn.

And guess what........... i didnt go for the 2 interviews that day. heeee. The one at Keppel Club... was too far. The one at SGH was under agency and when i read the terms, i think its risky - ïf you decide to resign within 90days from the date of the Letter of Appointment, you will have to pay the agency 50% back of your gross salary." Aint that risky?!

Okay, gtg. Keep in touch soon,
Muax Muax!

considerations

2008-11-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

=)
he woke up half hour after he pengsan..
Syukur Alhmadulillah..

hmmmz.....

Im watchin 2x5 dol. hehehe. my fave drama for now.......... and the funny thing is, i can imitate norfasarie! kherkherkherkher... see how, if i can manage to pose a pix like her character in this drama, i'll post it in here. hehehehe..

Tomorrow i have 2 job interviews... 1st at keppel club as data-entry clerk, 2nd at sgh hq as patient svc clerk at s.o.c. But as i was told by papa, keppel club is kinda far from harbourfront. Walkin in from bus stop takes bout 15mins. hmmmmz...... how ehk.......................

Btw, im considering to take up part time diploma course. Maybe at MDIS. Checked it out a while ago, they have evening programmes... hmmmz.................................... =)

Ayte, i hafta call HIM now.
Wonder what he has to say, wonder how's his health..

Muax muax..
Have a gd nite!

speechless.

2008-11-12T17:32:00.002+08:00

Hey...
"we" fought again. Last night up till...... 5pm just now?
*sigh
HE really keep his word..he did say "if i were to die or pengsan here, mama and your contacts are my emergency contacts. you're just waiting for me to die only then you'll regret."

I am insensitive kinda person, insolent and harsh. But i never ask for someone to die for me. Its not bout appreciating what you have done for me. Whats more important to me is, actions speak louder than words. Dont do silly stunts like commitin suicide or overdose of pills and etc. That turns me off totally. haiz...

I MADE HIM PENGSAN TODAY AT 5pm.

Arent i cruel? ='(

Ayte, this is just a random post.
Takin care people.

Welcome to the Club!

2008-11-11T23:46:00.003+08:00

Hey people!!
New blog, new blogskin, new tales of my life.

Well, i hope this wont be full of pedih2 stories. heeeeee! Anyway, are you listening hard to the song right now? Its Korean for your info. Each time i hear it, my mind pictures... a field of tall flowers... wind blowing gently against the skin, light blue sky.... such a beautiful scenery, aint it? hee.

The Bantal Busuk - yeah i know. Funny huh? Well, i have a bantal busuk of a powerpuff girl character - Blossom. I LOVE it soo soo much. It understands me better than humans do, i guess. It saw me thru ma life - the ups & downs days. hahaha =) Always there with me, comfortin me in its own ways. Whokie, i sound weird right? But yeah, i love my bantal busuk way too much. So its close to my heart, my soul.. and when i thought out bloggin, i planned to have it known as something that is precious to me. Since bloggin's contents are bout my life.. so yeah. Get me? NO? Adapt my language yaa.

Btw, Fir, thanks for your help with the blogskin yaa! Owe you! hahahahahaa

To TUA, you perk up my day - thanks to your blog. Im touched laa sey. Dont leave me, dear friend. Your among those that i have left now. *winks

Just to add a lil bit more story, i was bit hurt & upset when i read HIS blog. Well, in HIS blog, he name me WIFEY. Initially, i was happy. But after readin most of his blog entries......i was hurt. Saw a picture of him and someone. Upsets me alot. Even talkin bout it right now, my heart's pumpin real fast. *frowns

The issue here is, i told you i dont like her. I told you not to be close with her. You insisted nothing was goin on except a plain hie-bye friendship. You made her apologied on what she had done the other time, BUT, she didnt apologise to me but to you. Can i say, both are you are stupid or what? Geez. You're apologising to the wrong party. All and all, you didnt even tell me you took a picture with her. NEVER. Should i feel mad? or remorse?

It hurts. ALOT. HELL ALOT. *sobs

I know you'll just say, its nothing.. just a picture. And you'll start giving examples from my side. *sigh Whatever laa kan. Im not the girl who used to freak out when i see this things. Im not the girl who would immediately shout at you or avoid you after knowing it. I dont recall anything bout you taking picture with her. I HATE HER as how you hate him. You dont want me to see or even get in touch with him at all... Can you do that for me? Why do i have to tell you to stop only then you'll stop it? Can you do it without me telling you? BUT if you're readin this now, forget the whole idea of avoiding her and all. Cause i now u cant, she did your blog & you need your blog alot. So yah, if not, you'll get all paranoid & start talkin bout how few your friends are now because you sacrificed for me and all. haiz.. im tired of it all already. Do whatever you want, as long as i dont catch you. Yeah, I guess i still cant trust you.

Okie people, i gtg.
muax muax